Thursday, August 31, 2006

Learning to see

I should be sleeping, but I just got Rowan back in bed. He had a night terror, you know the ones like  nightmares except they don't wake up from them. I hate those because its hard to soothe when they really aren’t even with you, and if you try to truly wake him, it makes it worst. Sometime because his eyes might be open you might think he's are awake and just scared, but he's not. He cries and cough that scared crying hiccupy cough, and I'll think that he just has a dry throat, but then I get him water and he doesn't see it, pushes it away, doesn't want it. So I hold him, he struggles at first, but soon he settles down and we rock. 5-10 minutes later he's relaxed under my cheek his breathing is clam and normal again, and I am left just thinking.

 John has blogged a little about our realization of the uniqueness of Rowan, I have so much to say but I always seem to put it off to another day, sometimes today seems hard enough with out adding to it. Yester day (Tuesday) was our first “session”, I guess you’d call it, with Ms.D the child development therapist from ECI. Our session are 45 minutes a week, 4 times a month, which is the max the program will allow. I don’t know if we are getting the max because they think he really needs it, or because we only have 6 months before he graduates out. Either way I’m glad and appreciate the time we will get. From the first time he met D he warmed up to her. He does that with a  select few people, so I am glad she was chosen for us. Already I am learning to see so much I guess I was blind to before. All these signs that things were not “normal” that I had just attributed to personality. He had sensory issues that had I know what I was looking at I might have seen even as an infant. I feel so fucking stupid to have missed it and I just keep replaying all the things that caught me as odd when he was a baby and realizing I should have brought it up to his doctor. I just didn’t know, and I thought, well different child different likes & dislikes. The stimming is a sign that he is overwhelmed, scared or frustrated. How could I not see that? I just thought he was being a goofy kid, examining his hands, jumping around. Sure he was different, but I didn’t see that he was needing something. My brave little man, so self reliant. I just want to come home one day and have him tell me “Mommy I love you, hold me” or even just “pick me up"





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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

My Incredible Family


I just got done watching The Incredibles for the gazillionth time and it was successful in making me miss my wonderful family even more.

I don't know if there's anyone out there that has not seen this excellent film but if not, don't waste anytime. Go rent it now.

Walking out of the theater we immediately drew comparisons between the baby, Jack Jack and Rowan. Even at that early stage we knew there was something special about him. He has so many talents yet at the same time doesn't exactly fit in with other children.


I guess we should feel blessed that he doesn't randomly burst into flames everytime he sneezes!





Our own little Jack Jack: Ro Ro

And at Jack Jack's age:




Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Aut TV



The folks over at Aspies for Freedom have a webchannel for people and families coping with autism.

All programs are created by children and adults who have been diagnosed with autism and wish to "strengthen autism rights, oppose all forms of discrimination against aspies and auties, and work to bring the community together both online and offline."

Aut TV

Also:

Mozart and the Whale is a recent film starring Josh Hartnett and Radha Mitchell about two adults with Aspergers Syndrome falling in love.
It is written by Ronald Bass: co-writer to the Academy Award winning Rain Main, and directed by the Norwegian Peter Naess whose film Elling was nominated for an Academy Award for Best Foreign Language Film

Click here to preview a few clips.

Autism Speaks



Autism Speaks has a heartbreaking short documentary about the difficulties in raising a child with autism entitled: Autism Every Day.

I highly recommend taking 13 minutes of your time to see how the other half lives.

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Hopefully Rowan is not as severe as some of these unfortunate children are. We haven't even had him diagnosed. Our appointment is at 3PM on Tuesday August 22. Please keep him your prayers and wish him luck!

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Random Pics Of My Ro Ro



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Ever since the baby gate came down Rowan thinks he needs to be in my bed every morning ... but I guess thats better than beingin my bathroom every morning, which he tried for awhile! ;)

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Potty Party


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Originally uploaded by javaverses.
Its offical ... Aidan is potty trained, more details (and pictures) to follow soon!

Saturday, February 18, 2006

We finally got the boys haircuts last weekend.

Aidan before:


And after:



(Both pics are taken with my phone so sorry about the quality)

Brandy's comment afterwards was, "Aidan's head looks smaller and Rowan's head looks bigger." Now, I never thought I could imagine Rowan with a bigger head but I'd have to agree with her.

Here's them falling asleep at the dinner table the next night:



Rowan was actually eating in his sleep in this shot. Hilarious ;)

Monday, January 02, 2006

Chalk for the new year ..

So Rowan has discovered the great joys of chalk tasting.
He tells me that the white is the best by far!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Aidan announces his intentions to wed.

Aidan & Hailen's Playdate




Dispite the date in the picture, these were actually taken by John, November 13, 2005 .
So after Hailen & her daddy, Tony, left Aidan informed me that she was going to be a Mommy and he was going to be the Daddy. --- Hummm, I thought, aren't we a little premature with this convesation?

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Potty Training

We are potty training Aidan in ernest today! I bought a little timer and he has to try to go every 30 minutes, so far he has gone every time he has tried. We got a dry erase board to chart his progress, writing down the time, what he did, and when he has accidents. We are using Halloween candy as rewards. Damn it he will be potty trained by the end of this month I swear!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Halloween 2005

Why does Houston Halloweens always seem to be rainy? What ever happened to a dry crispy fall?

Anyways Aidan went as Darth Vader & poor Rowan was I guess best described as the Funky Bird Not A Chicken. He hated the hood (typical of his age, and the hood was heavy for a not quite 2 year old) and Aidan tired of the mask quickly. We got a late start because of the rain. It was 8 o’clock before we got to the 1st house. We went to the neighborhood behind Coffee O, like we have or the last 2 years. There is this one cul de sac street that gets really decked out. 3 Haunted garages, and lots of houses with decorations. It was fun. Rowan actually walked the entire time! He was so cute. He wanted to go inside every house and touch all things shiny! Aidan had an impromptu fight against his son – Luke Skywalker – funny thing is Luke looked older. We got home and I don’t think we had any trick or treaters, because our candy bowl was still brimming! Looks like well have a sugar high for weeks now! I’ll edit this with pick as soon as I get them developed! --- Ok here's the edit with pics!




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Saturday, August 27, 2005

Aidan's 1st Audioblog


So recently, I have decided to get Aidan involved in his blog. So as a treat today I let him record his 1st Audioblog. So check it out!

this is an audio post - click to play

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

The Original Super Baby!

The original super baby! Aidan
Just a little faster and I'll be flying!

Smiling Boy


Smiling Boy
Originally uploaded by javaverses.
Aidan wanted to post a picture this morning and picked out this. He's so cute!